Thursday, September 23, 2010

nervous freak

its 3.21am n im still doin my hair treatment, just dyed my hair black today coz i've been told ill stand a better chance if i got black but colored hair. the last time i got black hair was when im still in high skul lolx look rather innocent now v ma new hair color, Rocky said i look deceiving haha mayb i am? xP

take a look here =)
innocent? deceiving? younger? older? xP

in bout 5 hours ill be on d way to Singapore d~ hooray~~ xD im on a lone trip again but this time im not sad BUT freaking nervous!! got an interview on Sat, ive done my research as been told. hopefully i still stand a chance among all the nationalities...

okay,finish hair treatment, feel slightly smoother n softer haha n most importantly, not smelly anymore hehe

just now i was being so emo i probable hurt my besties feelings, im so in d wrong im gonna send my apologies to them now, hopefully they'll forgive me for my childishness..

just finish packing my luggage... total i hv 3 things to carry... my usual bag + camera bag + luggage... i can imagine how tiring ill be when i need to walk around Sg v all those.... T.T

this trip imma gonna take lots n lots of pics!!!! wakakaka of coz not to be forgotten... d interview..... but anyway... i just gonna give my best shot n if i failed... i just hv to look for other alternatives then...

aight, i left bout 2-3 hours to NAP only.. nitey nitezz diary~

~ WISH ME LUCK!!!! ~~~~

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

38days 912hours 57720mins

It has been my shortest relationships of all.. or shud i called it a fling?
when u haven got me, u treat me like a princess.. whatever i said u'll keep in mind... izit a tradition or what? after i've become yours.. u just doesnt seem to care nor bother anymore...

Your body is with me but your heart doesn't said so... a girl's feeling can be very sensitive.. they can tell if u really love them or your just looking for companionship or whatsoever to show someone that u too can get someone after someone dump u...

Browse thru ur hp... my contact name appears in front of me is still my name... i just feels like a total stranger... i've never even got d chance to get close to ur heart... saw d way u text ur ex... it isnt the way u text me... when u love someone ur sms-es showed... at first i thought i m being sensitive but after i read thru all of it... i knew... ur just using me... in what ways only u your own heart knows...

You are probably still on the rebound... please... if your not ready to love... just not look for anyone... you wan love... u wan someone to love, care, pamper u... same goes to me... i want someone to love n care for me as well...

You said u LOVE me... but your actions doesn't show...
U wan me to say i love u... but when i do? what did i get ? nothing..
U said u wouldn't wanna let go... but what did u do? nothing....
When im upset u doesn't know... u r just emotionless... or u just doesn't seem to care?
What i said i DON'T like for a thousand times... u said i LOVE it... where has ur heart gone to...

Please.... please just go after someone when you are not sure of what u really want...

I'm once more disappointed over guys.... shud i just love gals instead? tell me....