back to reality

Finally back to Ipoh on Wed afternoon coz gotta work d... after few days of relaxation, d lazybugs r reli bugging on me... had a great time v Looann & Lilian =) thx for bringing me to kaikai n all coz i know it reli feels lazy to go out in such a comfy condition hehe we went to Phuture, its my 2nd time thr(changed name but still consider 2nd time la,lolx), Pyramid for shopping and to catch Alice in Wonderland(still digesting the content).. and then..snowflakes to hv some sweet treats ^^ its been a long time that i did not get to swim..so me n looann went all out in d pool n i got a lil bit muscle ache d day after but it feels so good~~ xD

besides fun time, im having a hard time trying to figure out what's my talent, what job shud i look for? which suits me best? which profession am i into? sigh.. its really bugging me these days... feeling really lost atm... anyone would like to lend me a hand?? i wish?? ishhh dear diary will u tell me what shud i do?? aiks..im talking to myself again..

feel like going to other place to work but still the same Q,which profession? or am i reli a pro in a field? what am i good in? singing? nahh..just alright... make-up?? still under progress... bk to coll?? sigh...i've givin up bk then... ahh man....im so fucked up... feeling kinda useless nowadays like im jus good in nth... i guess...i just gotta keep thinking... somebody rescue me pls...

tired-ness

Reached kl on Fri evening and checked in to Federal Hotel just next to Lowyat Plaza. After sometime fb-ing, me and Lance headed for dinner at Lowyat. Went to hv Ramen yummy~ the food is not that bad but dunno y there's no customer at all, there's only us to hv our meal there.

After dinner, Lance isn't full enuf so he bought er... French donut??? sth donut but it looks like 'yao zhao guai' to me. its to serve v choc, strawberry, whatever u name it dippings. It's so oily i dun think ill hv the second try. after that we went for a drink at Starbucks~

After some resting, recharge energy then we went to a bar at bbpark. they hv liveband performing there. we saw some uncle being special guest so we requested to sing as well. lol the waiter said its ok to go up n sing so Lance went to ask hehe so... Lance sang one song then leave me alone on the stage d.. i ended up singing 3 songs... kinda addicted to d feeling standing on the stage =P im the one saying wanna sleep in early...going bk at 12 but bcoz of me we end up going bk around 1++am hohoho

the Astro Star Quest stars auditioning at 9am and registration closed at 3pm. Lance said that we might as well get a good night sleep so we can sing better. and so... we woke up at 10am...breakfast... the audition is located at Federal Hotel 2nd floor. its so packed when we were thr... we queue for 3 hours just to hand up the application form...and waited till 5++pm only our turn... exhausted =.= we manage to sneak out for quick lunch at a japanese restaurant at lowyat.

we had some entertainment as thr's a guy, wearing white singlet v baggy jeans.. accompanied by 2 bling blingy in front of his nippies muahahaha what a guy. u guys might c him on Astro in the future coz they video recorded him.

well...after 7 hours hanging out thr... we didnt get passed to 2nd audition..down but at least we tried =) thanks to Kenny who lead me to Lilian's place =) if not i would really been lost.

went for a night swim...so long never swim,it feels awwwwwesomeeee lolx

these few days will be spending time v Lilian and Looann hohoho

till then....

世上最心痛的距离

世上最心痛的距离，不是我拒绝了你，而是明明喜欢在你的

怀里，却让你觉得我不愿意和你在一起！

世上最心痛的距离，不是让你觉得我不愿意和你在一起，而

是离开你以后我痛苦万分，追悔不已！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我痛苦万分追悔不已，而是即使追

悔痛惜，也没有回头说，我其实很爱你！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我不能说我爱你，而是当我想放下

自尊表白时，你已冷漠的说，往事已矣！

世上最心痛的距离，不是你冷漠的说你已不在意，而是你放

手了，我却永远活在遗憾里，不能忘记！

世上最心痛的距离，不是我活在遗憾里，不能忘记，而是你

始终不懂我的悲哀，不明白我内心的孤寂！

世上最心痛的距离，不是你不懂我的悲哀，不明白我的孤寂

，而是我即使痛彻心脾，却不能放声哭泣！

Disappointed

To make new frens, its easy. To maintain it, it takes a lot of time and patience. I do not need a lot of frens, Best Friend,1 is more than enuf. For me,im lucky to have 4 of em. They're all my high school friends. We din get along very well in high skul, we only built our friendship when we're out of skul. thou we all hv diff path, diff life, diff frens but we all still remain together.

Once in a while, we do hv arguments but our friendship did survived. At this moment, im not so sure anymore. Past few months there're some arguments but we walk thru it. Now,its another matter and this is the worst part i ever face. She's the one who gave me the most support and the same to her. She did blackmail me sometime ago but i learnt to let it go as long as we're a group again. It doesnt matter if im the one to lower my voice. But for this time, it doesnt work at all. She still stand firm to whatsoever i said.

Tried to talk to her nicely, but nth seems to change her mind... sigh what is it so hard for u to let it go? Just becoz of the 2 words makes u feel uneasy? i really cant understand, u can make a joke out of it but why cant when we said it back to u? its jus contradiction arent u?

Im wondering if im too hard on u, i've been thinking bout this since we get bk from Genting. we use to share our deepest secret,fear, and of coz happiness. what is it stopping u to share anymore? is it jealousy, money matters, ego matters? maybe its all of em but im sure we can talk thru it but why arent u opening urself up? if u dun say it of coz we dun understand u la duh!!! whatever reason it is that ur too shame to tell, i dont care. As long as u'll show up on ur farewell party, shuddup on ur money matters, we're givin u a farewell means its all on us.

what makes me simmer is that u can reject all our invitations and said that u wanna stay home all the time but then i saw u going to JJ. Im askin u to join us at JJ,u said u dun wanna out and then???? wtf!!!

i use to be the one who made the most complaints, fussiest, mood-swingy and watever..

i did not say that u do not hv temper, but this had gone too far, far beyond our limits. we hv try our best and this is the borderline. I dunno if u ever will get to c this coz i know u only fb-ing, anyway, i wanna say its u, ur the one who doesnt wan to solve this up. after this time, i cant be assure we all can be so close like we use to be anymore coz this is not ur 1st time already. d past i wouldnt wanna bring it up again.

So, if i see u tmr, ill try my best to solve the prob, if not, then this is it. by then.